Just a little nervous

Mark posting:

Thought I'd share what's in my head at the moment. I'm a little nervous. Not about the decision to do the surgery, just about the hospital stay mainly. While Tia has had a few operations where she's been "under", I never have. I've never even been in a hospital unless it was to visit someone. My main concern, I think, is the anesthetic. You hear the horror stories about waking up during surgery, or being under and feeling things, but not being able to speak. Stuff like that. Yes, I read all the statistics about it, and I know it's extremely rare, but it still runs through my head.

I told my best friend Mike about the surgery on Friday. He was extremely supportive, as expected, but he has also never been under. No help there!

Being a research-aholic and planner, I'm also nervous because I don't have a super clear picture of what a typical day will be like after surgery. I'm studying like hell, and know quite a bit, but you can never predict which (if any) compliations will hit. The eating picture is coming into focus now, but from what I've read, all the pre-planning in the world can't predict how our tastes will change (and from what I read, that happens to the majority of people).

Maybe this is all meant to teach me how to go with the flow more? Hmmmmm.